Here We Go Again! (:

So yeah, back to the lonely journey to school...

Usually, on this journey, i take the time to reflect and think about matters which affect me in a way or another...

The matter that i most thought about on my journeys last week were basically about matters of the heart, which i'm going to finally confess to this certain someone whom it may concern, after days of silence..

I basically fell for this certain someone and by falling for that person, it placed me in a good dilemma for the past 3 weeks.

I wasnt ready for such things to happen, i had to admit that i had no intentions to go any further than a friendship with that person. i wanted to be all by own. Loving one who might not return that love that i gave...

This is my confession for the person whom it may concern..

Dear you,

Things went very wayward than what i hoped for, you treated me with full of care, love and concern which i really appriciated and for once after a long time, it made me felt loved again (:

The feeling was so strong that i began seeing the negative side of the one i was loving. i was making assumptions and comparisions between you and her, i was wrong. i got angered over every slight possible mistake she made and began seeing her very differently, i was blaming her for having the flaws that you are gifted with.

The dilemma i had actually, was to choose whether it would be between you and her. I know it may be hurting for you to finally read it like this. I am really very sorry.

During the final few days, i remembered being honest to you when you told be to confess but i also told you to be very careful.

Indeed you were careful, indeed you were cheerful and you never stopped smiling that whole day but you typically scared me through your misjudgements about the person whom i was.

I seriously felt discouraged by the events that night and whatever it is, i forgive you and thank you but I've got to admit. we can be nothing more than only friends. i hope you understand that and will not intend to take any grudges against me.

So yeah...thats about it...all the best for the week ahead. take care.